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Saturday, June 19, 2010

happy father's day abah...

Daddy's Girl
When you were young, pony-tailed,
face full of playful freckles,
were you a daddy's girl?
I was. I still am.
Did you look to him for your security,
for love and attention,
for the understanding, and the patience you lacked
as a child?
My daddy was the center of my small world,
the focus of my affections,
the star that lit my life, shining bright.
Shining still in my heart.
The years have led me here,
weathered with maturity and responsibilities,
and I see more clearly now.
The hardships, burdens of love,
and all the small sacrifices he made for me,
for our family.
He created stability, a place to call home.
All the photographs I browse through
of a child long forgotten, scarcely remembered
smiling, so happy and so loved.
The mere thought of becoming that role model
is enough to send me cowering, afraid...
looking for guidance.
Turning to my father and my more for support,
advice, wise counsel, and for approval.
Grown up, I see differently now...
A new perspective of a man I have always known.
My heart is full, my emotions overpowering
just in the certainty of that bond.
He's been there for me through all the conflicts
helping me over the rough, ragged stones of growing up.
My respect for him is unending,
faith is unbound, and love is unquestioning.
Even in the midst of all my imperfections, he is lenient,
ignoring the pitfalls, the downfalls, the shortcomings,
he just accepted me as I was, as I am.
The sheer purity of it leaves me awe-struck
and it lifts me up, it holds my head a little higher,
it keeps me in balance,
harmonizing with the world around me
beautifully, like an inspired masterpiece from the soul
of an honest man.
I am honored to know him, to love him, to be of him.
He's my hero, and I am his daughter, his little girl.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

i miss you che'

i want to run far far away
just for a while but i don't know where to go..

my friends are busy and some of them are just like me..[can't drive..huhu]
where should i go..

suddenly i think of you che'..
if you still here..i can balik kampung and be with you..
i miss you...


im tired of pretending that i am strong

she may seem so perfect but behind it all..shes just an accident waiting to happen

this is where the hurting starts & the nightmare begins.

the girl who always looks sad but claims she’s fine.
the girl who puts sad away messages up everyday.
the girl who when she sees you, smiles a half a smile.
the girl who always has time to listen to you vent and is willing to give her opinion to help you in anyway that she can.
the girl who cares about helping everyone but herself.
the girl who cries every night before she goes to sleep.
the girl who pretends that she’s okay while she's dying inside.

the girl who hugs you when you’re down but secretly wishes she could hug you forever.
the girl who tries to look beautiful even though she knows she’s not.
the girl who says that she’ll always be there for you & means it.
that’s me that is the story of my life

You should know by now that when I smile and say "yeah, I'm fine" it's really code for "no I'm not okay and I feel like my world is crashing down around me"

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

stressed out

how to get over stressed out..
here's the tips..[ stressed out and its not over yet..:p]

1.start talking..
for me, my friends are my support network,my parents too...but if i got prob with family i like to talk to my friends..haha~..i think they know me much better.Although it can be intimidating to talk about some issues, when i smother my problems inside, it automatically increase my stress level. When i get it out there, im lightening d load.

2.chill out
i can chill out...but just for a while 'coz it always haunting me..and plus, i got a 'supporter'..dats y i need to b alone!~..bring me positive aura please...negative not allowed..~
i can write a journal like this~,try to relax..[end up with sleeping..hahahaha]..but the point make time for myself so i can connect to what i feel..

3.laugh a lot..
Laughing is a positive way to combat the negative effects of stress..
[aku selongkar gobok cari komik lame2 terjumpa shin chan..ouuyeahh..and try]
laugh watever funny thing..even its not soo funny just laugh..hahahahahahahaha

i want to play badminton but i dont have a partner..i want to jog but same thing...i need a partner..
why all my friends got lot of work to do [practical la..part time la..-i almost get the part time job but i refuse it coz parents need me..]

5.Deal with it.
It's the hardest but most effective piece of advice, which means sometimes i just gotta do it. Pinpoint what's causing d stress, and confront it. If you're unhappy with your relationship, for example, be honest with your partner. Or if you feel your parents' expectations are too high, level with them. The worst thing that can happen is an awkward conversation or even a fight, which, strangely enough, will be better for you then ignoring your needs.

now i deal with it...
and i need a time to afraid a cant..

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

physic...wat is dat?

my name is sardin and i am 21 years at uitm jengka,diploma in science and i choose physic instead of biology...i take modern physic and electronic.. in modern physic,i learn about nuclear, radioactive, atoms and so much more, but basically we had already learn about momentum, inertia, and others just like physic form 5 but much details..ok..wat i really want to write father asked for a pen and paper..then he draw a tank and pipe inside it..i was like...'okey..there is a pipe in a tank..ahaa..and d position is like dat..ok..ahaa..'..then my father.." do u think dat if i put something rite over here[pointing at his drawing]..the force is still d same or i just make it worst?..kita ada masalah karat thinking d way to reduce it..".."ohoOo..just buy a filter then..ahaha..".."no no no..there's another way.."..dats y i luv him..he ask me about physic!..adeii..[actually..i dont really know how to answer his question..hahaha]

Monday, June 14, 2010


i dont know why i cant wait 4 d explanation...[y do i care so much] of my list..[perasan yg aku ade dlm list dowg..haha] come my fav - i love my brother and my sister in law soo much..[this statement never come out i guess this is a hot statement..haha]...i luv them...i luv everyone who take care of my parents and this is not about cant buy luv rite..hulurkan tangan ringankan beban...hehehe...another one..berat mata memandang berat lg bahu memikul..lg2...saya malas awak lagi malas!~


i need your explanation so that i will not hate you..arghhh..sometime i would like to live on my own..having a great parents,a lots of friends,friends that i trust and always be on my side when i need them..its not like we [friends] never have a problem in our relationship..we do argue a lots, cry, missunderstood, but then it will end up with a hug, and we could understand each other much much more..they even change me being a better person..they know me better than anyone else..they are great,they are nice to people who with me..if something wrong, we'll tall,so i know wat i did wrong..i love them soo much and cant live without my i wish u n me could b like that..i cant just pretend nothing happened.. i think u did wrong bcoz of dat i really need an explanation or i dont want to see you again, i dont care if we;re not long as u tell me wat happened.